Covid-19 my opinion: yeah. It's not warm & fuzzy, just honest.

For me, as soon as I had done all I could to understand the situation, I felt calm, which is why I'm sharing my thoughts. The choice to read, or not, is yours.

I did some research on legit sites like CDC, WHO, etc. Read test limitations on CDC site & now believe test is mostly inconclusive as there are too many ways for it to be wrong...false positive, false negative, human error, not enough sample, etc. I'm very disappointed in my government's response to this pandemic. I'm a patriotic veteran who served in the Army National Guard and the U.S. Air Force. I'm also interested in history. Our country has made many grave errors in the past, often in the financial interests of a few already well-funded businessmen. I had hoped this generation of politicians would be morally superior; I believe I was wrong. Having served in the military, I know there are contingency plans in place for this type of situation and I couldn't understand why it seemed they weren't being used.

Family told us they had been exposed to a local waitress who had tested positive at KRMC, the sample was sent to a University of Washington lab for confirmation of the positive results, that result came back inconclusive and stated a 3rd test would be done at either the CDC or a public state lab. The patient and our family was told to go home, self-quarantine, and not talk about it on social media. My husband, brother, and father are all high risk; so I had concerns. On 3/20, I emailed District 1 Supervisor and Governor Ducey to ask when the 3rd test results would be available to the community and to tell them it seemed disingenuous to be claiming 0 confirmed positive cases in Mohave County. The Supervisor called my house and told me only one test had been done and couldn't cite any sources for what he was saying, other than to tell me to read The Miner. I don't subscribe to The Miner and didn't have my resources up (but they weren't questioned) because I wasn't expecting the phone call. I believe he did have the District 3 Supervisor on the line although he didn't tell me that and didn't introduce her but she did ask me a question. I received an immediate reply from Governor Ducey indicating my email had been received and a response would be sent in a few days, that was more than a month ago and I haven't received anything else. I replied to an email I received from the Director of the Mohave County Department of Public Health asking when the third test results would be available on 3/20 and posed the same question on the public website; neither were answered. The third test came back from a WA public state lab and was also inconclusive which is considered a negative. I'm very happy for that patient and thank her for posting the result as it eased my mind. Afterward, I received an email response from the Arizona Department of Health Services COVID-19 Response Team indicating the Arizona public state lab turnaround time is 1 day. In the meantime, I did a lot of research, and this post is the end result.  

I think we'll all be exposed to covid-19, some will get sick, and around 3% of those who get sick will die.

I think President Trump is the leader of America and the pandemic response is his responsibility. The President should have been informing the American public rather than allowing the press to spread fear. I think as soon as the first covid-19 patient reached American soil and it was known how many days it would take to shut down the virus; the president should have ordered everyone home for 21 days.

I'm certain God is good and His plan is still unfolding until the day of Christ's return. I'm praying for my country, which I was blessed to be born in.

America, now is the time to humble yourself. Return to God.

"Therefore, repent of this wickedness of yours, and pray to the Lord that the intent of your heart may be forgiven you." Acts 8:22

"You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."
John 8:32

"For the love of money is the root of all evil..." 1 Timothy 6:10

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Footnote:

I posted this a month ago on 3/28/2020 at 10:26 am almost word for word. It is slightly updated due to the passage of time. I'm only posting it here for the purpose of retaining it for historical purposes. This posting is under a pseudonym as has been previously stated.

Now I Have to Forgive Myself

I'm married to the most amazing man!

Yesterday, we were angry and yelling at each other. I indignantly rode off on the side-by-side (going 25 miles an hour), eyes averted, face set with anger and determination, heart hurting as he headed off to spend the day talking firearms with his buddies. He had just asked me if I felt trapped and I said yes. (thinking but not saying, you dumbass! I can't go anywhere because of covid-19!) I was on my way to pick up a new CPAP for him, so an essential activity.

I didn't want to call it quits, but if he wanted to that was fine by me!  Not really, but.

I avoid.

I'm really good at that.

And denial.

Really good.

This morning, I'm talking to my husband about my last husband and this time he sneered at me because he'd relapsed on meth earlier than I'd realized and somehow that seemed to make him feel superior to me. I went on to explain that the whole time we were married I paid for everything. My ex paid for nothing. I explained the end of that marriage and how in retrospect it seemed that everything my ex had said seemed to have been a lie, or at least enough things seemed to have been lies that I now question everything he ever said to me. I told my husband I probably should have known the relationship was built on lies much sooner but I'm very good at denial. Remember I'm the girl who didn't know she had sex the first time because she told her boyfriend she didn't want to go all the way and my best friend had to explain it to me. And I argued with her. And part of the truth hit me.  

I said "I don't know why I thought it would be different outside my home than it was inside my home."  And another part of the truth hit me.

I started sobbing and told my husband I needed a few minutes alone with my thoughts. I went and cried and prayed and cried and thought and cried and prayed and thought and prayed and cried.

Then I explained to my husband that I was in denial. I told him I did know that I had sex but I didn't want to have sex. My parents told me I needed to be a virgin. I wanted to be a virgin. I wasn't a virgin. My step-dad took my virginity. I don't think it was violent though. I remember rubbing his hands with Vaseline lotion, I can describe his genitals.

I was sexually precocious and my parents blamed me for it. I explained to my husband I believe I was complicit in the sexual abuse. It started when I was 2 years old so I didn't understand it was wrong but I think eventually I figured it out but because I thought I was to blame and because the verbal abuse was in full force, I internalized and denied. I don't think my step-dad ever asked and I don't think I ever told him I didn't want to participate.

I had to understand the mechanics of sex. We both remember a sex ed class in grade school music class where they separated the boys and girls and explained the birds and bees. I do know this for certain. My wonderful husband and I dated in high school and he was the first guy who asked and respected my "no". I'm sure that's part of why I fell in love with him.

Now I Have to Forgive Myself

But it's okay, my Father and Creator is carrying me through this part.