Late Start

So, rough night here. This story is gross.

The last two days I’ve had vertigo pretty much constantly. However, I’m preparing for something big tomorrow, so although I felt like I needed to restrict my activities, I’ve been trying to push through.

I’ve had to push a few activities off, but not too many and I’m ready for tomorrow’s event.

Day before yesterday, I was mildly nauseous all day. Yesterday afternoon, I realized the rumbling, queasy, need to go feeling in my tummy that I’d had all day was because of the extended, constant nausea. I went to bed like normal. Woke up around 4 am with vomit in my mouth!

Yuck!

I hate vomiting! I will fight it and fight it, so I rarely do. This had never happened to me before, waking up like that. I went to the bathroom to see if there was more. There wasn’t, thank God. I brushed my teeth and got back in bed. I’m laying there with the same queasy nausea, afraid to go to sleep and have it happen again.

I remember I have Promethazine for nausea and get up to take it. I find the Meclizine which I haven’t been taking because it causes extreme sleepiness. Apparently, the Promethazine is still in the Dodge’s glove compartment.

Well, it was 4 am and I wasn’t due to get up until 6:25 am. I decided to take a half. I woke up right before 8 am, sleeping through two alarms.

I have a plan for today.

My approach is to make a plan once a week for the following week and do my best to follow it. Some days, I abandon the plan altogether. Most days, I adjust as needed, getting as much accomplished as possible, adding more time to a task, including a nap or naps: I’m dismayed at how little I’m able to do now, but I know I’ve done my best and that’s enough for the day and this is my new normal. Occasionally, I have a day with no or very little vertigo and I’m able to get a lot done. I have to be careful on these days because the temptation is to push myself to hard and I end up really sick again. Today, is going to be a day where I consciously have to allow myself to let things go and just focus on the most important things but hopefully not a day to completely abandon the plan.

Not the way I like to start a day but I’ll take it. It’s better than the alternative.